My four year old loves puzzles. He loves when he succeeds and gets all the pieces to fit exactly right where they are supposed to. When the pieces don’t fit right, the frustration, the failure and the desire to quit kick in. He doesn’t realize that when he does the same puzzle over and over, he never gets better. He is adjusted and he is comfortable. But, when he tries the new ones, the hard ones, he only gets better. Yes, it takes some sweat and tears….but it’s all worth it to see the awesomeness of the picture at the end.
Life. Life is a puzzle. And we are happiest when each piece fits in the right spot. But, when it doesn’t we push and push just like a piece of a puzzle to make it work. Because when all the pieces fit together you feel the most accomplished, successful and happy.
It has been a year and a half since David’s passing. We went through a year of firsts without David and now we start a year of firsts as a family of three. It is exciting, it is new, it is scary, it is fresh, it is needed. Our puzzle fit perfectly the first year after David’s passing, but the pieces just didn’t seem to quite fit beyond that. The triggers and reminders set in, the life moved forward, but the memories were relived. Not the good ones, but the ones that reminded me of a suffering and loss that I still don’t quite understand.
With lots and lots and lots of prayer…..we take a leap of faith and we move forward. Not in our minds and hearts, but in our life. We look forward to the puzzle pieces of a new life fitting together. We are hopeful and excited for a future whether our family expands or it remains the munchkins and I. We are beyond lucky for the friendships in our lives, the encouragement from others and the support that is unmatchable.
I sometimes think, it is when we take the biggest leaps and have the strongest faith that God clearly guides the pieces for you. Within 48 hours of putting our house on the market, it sold. Not only that, but to a family that loves it as much as we do. The kids and I have found a home in an amazing area and community in Dallas. We get the chance to stay through the school year and move at our convenience at the end of May. The pieces that seemed to not fit are gradually coming together.
There have already been lots of sweat and tears as I take this leap with the shakiest of steps….but I am beyond excited to see the beautiful picture at the end.
Taking Steps By Faith,