Hi, my name is Dana. Remember me? That girl, who lost her husband of ten years to a disease too well known to many of us….Cancer. Raising two little nuggets, who thought it would be really cool to take a journey of leaps of faith and move to a new place and have 1,000’s of people follow her writings and feelings. Hmmm…………… Thats me…….kind of.
My friends, my family, you, the readers, know me as someone with hope. Someone with faith. Someone who is positive. Someone who is strong, but I have surely failed you lately. Which is why the silence for so long.
I am as weak as weak can be when it comes to my hope. My faith has been shaky. Things I have believed in, relationships have failed. What I thought was enough was not. My life was suppose to be different. I have become vulnerable to myself in ways that have revealed the journey of grieving that seems all too real. My emotions have ruled how I live and think, instead of God. I have been challenged. I have seen the truth of what is important in my life and my children’s lives.
But, there are things I know. And this is where I pray the foundation of my faith will come in. I know were my faith once stood. I know the foundation of the truth of it. I know who I was with Christ during some of the darkest days when I saw someone I love be taken from this world. I know the strong mom I used to be. I know the life I have always traveled and lived as real. I know that God did not take David and I. But, left me with the privilege of raising two sweet, kind hearted, loving children. I know that life will have it’s up and downs, but it doesn’t matter what happens when you are up…….but what happens when you are down.
But guess what……..it’s not to late!!! I still have the gift of life. I have the foundation of what I know as truth.
I know I want to live my life with Christ in it. I know I want my kids to see my joy in Christ. I know that God gives us a choice. I know we have free- will. We are given a choice. A choice to live. A choice to be. And sometimes it takes the tenth boulder to be thrown at us, for us to wake up and realize……this is not to be. We may duck only to get hit again. But, it is when God wakes us up and we know, enough is enough, that we can catch that boulder in a way that we never thought humanly possible and throw it back.
Today, I catch it. But, it is going to be long and hard and scary road before I have the strength to throw it back. But, I have had harder days! And ready to be who I am in Christ. Not who I am of this world.
I have committed to always being real when writing. And please………..please…….
I pray this post encourages at least one person to take a stand in their life. I hope you see that there can be change. That you can have a life that is with absolute peace and joy. That who you are is the boulder you carry. Not, the one you duck from.
I hope we all can realize…..that it is the road of perfection that is walked alone, not the road of imperfection.
Taking Steps By Faith,
There is no better joy as a blogger then to see a friend step up and not only write, but have the confidence to write about a boulder many children in this world carry. I ask for you to take a moment to read and subscribe to my friend Dr. Soo Battle’s blog. We have encouraged her this last year to share her knowledge, her experience and her motherly advice with all of us in the form of a blog. We have loved it so much, we wanted other’s to benefit as well. She hit’s topics none of us want to discuss, but she is wise with her words! Thank you for taking a moment to read!